Lady Awesomesauce strikes again. I’m so excited to introduce Mary Carol Moran’s new blog, where she writes about the Law of Attraction from a spiritual perspective. Check out her first post today, about the difference between asking and attracting, at http://soulofattraction.blogspot.mx/.
Today’s post by Mary Carol so perfectly illustrates how the Universe knows exactly what we want, often better than we do, and how the Law of Attraction is always striving to bring us what we REALLY want. We just have to allow it. Here’s Mary Carol:
Houses have always been a big deal for me. I’ve moved over 40 times in my 61 years. I’ve beaten myself up for moving. I’ve accepted that I’m a vagabond. I’ve identified with a paternal grandfather who moved a lot too. I’ve forced myself to stay put to the point of panic attacks. I’ve stopped buying houses. I never figured it out. The longest I’ve managed to live in one house is three years, and it was a struggle.
I moved into the house I’m in now thinking, “Okay, I’ll stay a year and figure out what’s really going on with all the moving.” It was like the house gave me a year off to relax and meditate in peace. Thank you house! Ten months in, I’m moving again. Failure? I don’t think so.
I’ve figured out a few things
When I was very little, my parents fought. I would hide in a closet to avoid the angry voices. My two-year-old self felt that the walls protected me. I’ve been looking for walls that could protect me ever since, but of course they can’t. I move into a new house with the false hope of emotional boundaries, and move on when it doesn’t work.
I was born to parents in crisis, probably about to divorce. My conception changed their plans, and they stayed together until they each died. But it wasn’t a happy marriage. So I was born to two people who more or less would rather I hadn’t been conceived. They were both good people with enormous holes in their psyches, holes they couldn’t seem to help each other fill and that I couldn’t fill for either of them. (We can only ever fill our own holes.) The roots I might have put down into a loving family didn’t happen. I never grounded, so to speak. In a sense I was born homeless, and ever since, I’ve been a homeless person who happens to live temporarily in a house.
All of which sounds like a sob story – sorry! – but it isn’t. Being rootless has given me wings. I can be a soaring dragon, a fire spirit. I connect to my Soul and live in joy, pretty much all the time. Life is awesome!
But back to the house
I’ve been visualizing the home I truly wanted. It was open and breezy with a big garden. I looked and looked, knowing that this kind of house pretty much doesn’t exist in the city of Colima, Mexico, where I live. A couple of weeks ago, I put a paper at the head and foot of my bed that reads, “I live in nature with trees and grass.” And I kept looking. I also tried to appreciate the best aspects of the house I’m in now, which is lovely but very concrete-y.
Yesterday morning, I had a big breakthrough on an entirely different project, a book I’m starting to write. It was a glorious, high energy, vibrating-with-the-angels sort of moment.
And then it was like the blast of energy opened a door. Out of habit, I looked on the Internet at houses to rent and found a new one. It was in a neighborhood that I like, the house not exactly what I wanted but possible. I dislike phoning in Spanish, but I did it anyway, persevering until I connected with the realtor. We arranged to meet and see the house. I saw it, liked it, rented it, went home, posted pictures for friends and family, and started questioning myself.
OMG, what have I done?!
I woke up this morning with an OMG, what have I done? This isn’t the house of my dreams! Have I sold out? Then I relaxed and pondered. Two cups of coffee, browsing the Internet, relaxing and pondering. What I realized is that the LOA has worked perfectly. PERFECTLY! It brought me not the house of my dreams, but the house I truly want and am ready for. I’m in awe of how I attracted something so much better than my visualization.
Even better than what I thought I wanted
The dream house was kind of shabby, more like a tree house or a shack. I told myself I could live with that to be close to nature. The real house is a lovely gem, nicely finished, next door to a small park with two giant trees and a half block from a bigger park with lots more giant trees. The dream house was tiny but expensive. Land here costs a lot. The real house has plenty of room for friends and family to visit, and costs about what I’m paying now, totally affordable! The real house even has an amazing kitchen, where I had imagined myself making do in something fairly primitive. I had an underlying twinge about transportation, and the real house is one block from the largest taxi stand in Colima. I’ve been wanting to get back into yoga, though I didn’t see exactly how that fit into the dream house. The real house has a two-car garage that will make an excellent yoga studio.
Instead of the real house being a sell-out of my dream, the dream house wasn’t dreaming big enough! The house of my dreams was limited by what I thought I could get. The real house is what was out there all along, right around the corner, waiting for me to muster up the energy to match it.
So what is the take-away from all this?
First, it does pay off to put in the meditating time, the relaxing time, to let old issues surface and clarify. Until I sorted out the walls thing and the roots thing, I couldn’t manifest the awesome house thing!
Second, putting words on a wall is a good way to clarify your desires. I plan to write a post detailing this process one day soon. You don’t need to get the desire right the first time. Just keep refining and refining, changing the words as the image clears.
Third, keep looking. Magic doesn’t always just appear. I was actively looking for a house when the right one found me.
Last and most important, trust the Law of Attraction! If you release and let the energy flow, say thank you for what you already have, and keep your eyes open to all possible versions of awesome, you will soon be surrounded by more abundance than you could even imagine.
Do you have a story of wishes fulfilled, perhaps even better than you imagined? Do you have a question, or a suggestion? As always, I look forward to your thoughtful and thought-provoking comments. Warm fuzzy puppy hugs to all!
Mary Carol Moran lives in Mexico, where she spreads love and awareness and poetry. She spends her mornings volunteering at the city animal shelter for dog and cats. Her latest project is her new blog http://soulofattraction.blogspot.mx/where she explores the spiritual aspects of the Law of Attraction.